You Win! (forever!)

Have you ever noticed how there is a program running in this 3-D plane of existence that leaves us feeling wrong a lot of the time? Wrong about what we think, what we do, what we don't do... wrong about how we handle money, or what we choose, or what we say, or... the list goes on and on. I remember an old farcical song called "I'm Unworthy." It began something like, "I'm unworthy. No matter what I'm doing, I should probably be doing something else.."

This program running "wrong" in our head is the same program that makes us need to be right, or feel that we are. The energy of the two is actually the same, like flip sides of a coin - it's still all the same currency. If we're holding on to "right," we're also holding on to "wrong," and if we take an honest look at how that energy makes us feel, we see it's like sludge in our systems. As a friend of mine once said, "I alternate between feeling like I'm hot shit or a piece of shit, but either way, it's still shit!" And it feels inescapable, this massive poo pile, because it's everywhere around us - politics, religion, relationships, and especially inside of our own heads.

Right/Wrong is a self-perpetuating program running on an endless playback loop: "Yep, you're wrong. No, you're right. Oh, you're so wrong that you think you're right! Let's play it again!" It's insanity.

Programs run on little 1's and 0's, like the green screen Neo sees in The Matrix. 

 

When I saw this heart today on the sidewalk, I thought it looked like a little balloon floating in a Matrix mess. There were all those little 1's and 0's, running the rightness and wrongness of everything, with our little brains bopping back and forth between the two like so many bobble-heads, totally clueless that they are just running a program. And then in floats the heart - light, spacious, unconcerned with right and wrong, just be-ing. It's funny. The heart is the only way to beat the program, but it wins by not playing. It says, "That's the craziest thing I ever heard of, that right/wrong prison! I think I'll have something else, thank you very much!" By not playing it wins forever. Guess what? Playing the right-and-wrong game is optional, not required. Isn't that a relief? The mind (egoic/dualistic wonder that it is) finally gets its dream job as it steps into service of the wise, infinite heart (instead of the other way around). Then we are free. YES.